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Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Happy Wednesday, everyone! I hope the rest of the week is a nice, easy, downhill slide towards Friday, don't you? I am not nearly as excited for this weekend as I was for last weekend, mainly because this one involves having plans that require me to leave the house, but... what can you do? I'd still like the weekend to be here ASAP, so at least I don't have to be in this office anymore.

Anyway, since it's Wednesday, it's time once again to link up with Kathy over at Vodka & Soda for some confessions!

Vodka and Soda

- Yesterday, I was so angry that no one had refilled the 25 mL glass pipettes in the tissue culture lab that I just opened a new bag... without realizing that they weren't individually wrapped and as such, had just contaminated all of them. So I threw them out. Whoops. Resource stewardship: You're doing it wrong.

- I was cleaning up my documents folder on this computer today in preparation for leaving my job, and I found a PDF for grant rates for Penn for 2012 that I could not remember downloading, nor did I have any idea why I had it in the first place. So I deleted it. Hope that wasn't important.

- I am paranoid about being better friends with someone than they are with me. That sentence barely makes sense. But I have this horrible fear that I'm annoying the crap out of someone who I really like to hang out with because she actually doesn't want to hang out with me and is too nice to say anything. But I can't very well ask her if she wants me to go away, because chances are, she wouldn't tell me because she's too nice. But I have a feeling that if I never contacted her again, she'd be okay with that, and that makes me sad. And also extremely neurotic, right? Right.

- I printed out the first week's worth of notes for my summer pre-matriculation courses for med school using my office's color printer. I'm not sorry.

- ... but I am slightly terrified because this is just the first week's worth of stuff. And yes, I know, I've done the med school thing before and it's like drinking from a fire hose and it's only going to get worse... but I'm still kind of shocked by the volume of paper here. But I do love organizing things like this, so maybe I'll just focus on that aspect for now.

- I have to go to Long Island on Saturday for my husband's family BBQ/picnic and I cannot possibly think of something I would like to do less. I hate driving up there, I have no desire to sit in a park/on a beach or wherever because I break out in a rash when I'm out in the sun for too long (thanks, autoimmune disease!), and I have to drive back by myself b/c Ken is staying up in NY that night for a friend's party. On top of that, because we're going to this thing, we're missing another family party for the other side of his family, and I like those people a lot better and it's closer. The things we do for marriage, I suppose.

- The only thing I want to do tonight is go home, plant myself on the sofa, and watch the rest of the second season of Scandal. Forget, for a moment, that there are 12 episodes left in the season. And then there's season 3! (I might have a problem.)

- I am incredibly sad that my friend Pam is moving to Connecticut on Monday to take a job at Yale. I'm also super proud of her, but if I could, I'd keep her here in Philly. Sorry, Pam.

- I have plans after work to go to Center City Sips for Pam's going away festivities, and then I was also invited to go out with some of the med students (also for Center City Sips), and then Ken asked if I wanted to go out with all of his teacher friends after graduation tonight. I don't really want to do any of this (except see Pam), mainly because it's interfering with my ability to go home and watch Scandal in my pajamas.

- I have way too much yarn and my new project is rewinding all of the weirdly wound balls of yarn into center-pull "yarn cakes". It's quite the task, and it's very exciting to my cats.
Left: Wily yarn ball of disasters
Right: Organized yarn cake of lovlieness
- I have seen so many bloggers recently asking people to "bare with them" and I want to comment, "I don't care how much I love your blog, I will not get naked with you. Please edit this."

- I'm in weird life-limbo right now and it's driving me crazy.

- I stopped taking my methotrexate 2 weeks ago (under the guidance of my rheumatologist!) and I'm hyper-aware of any aches or pains I've been feeling since then. I hate feeling like at any minute, I might start falling apart. It's one of the few times in my life I've wished to be less aware of things.

- As much as I love therapy and think that my therapist is amazing, sometimes it feels really stupid and pointless and I have to remind myself that I'm not just throwing $75 out the window.

- I bought not one, but TWO pints of Ben & Jerry's "Coffee, Coffee, Buzz Buzz Buzz" ice cream on Monday night because I never find it in the stores and I'm kind of really addicted.

- Sometimes when I'm hungry and I don't know what I want, I just won't eat anything. I know this isn't the right response to hunger, but... oh well.

- I was so grossed out by a giant cicada on the outside of my window the other day that I shut the curtains so I wouldn't have to look at it.

- As excited as I am for medical school, I am really not looking forward to dissecting another cadaver. I did that once already, it was cool, and now I'm over it. I'm not morally opposed or grossed out, I just... don't feel like putting in all that time and effort AGAIN. Too bad for me, I guess.

- I'm horribly nervous to meet my classmates, speaking of med school. What if none of them like me? What if they all think I'm a big weirdo for having left med school once already? What if they all make me want to punch them in the face because they're all gunners? What if some of them already read this blog because they've seen it on Facebook!?

- I still haven't picked up the copy of our marriage license (which was issued in 2012, whoops) because I have to go to City Hall between 8 and 4, except on Wednesday, when they're open until 7:30. So maybe I'll make myself go tonight. Maybe.

- Now I'm worried that this is way too many confessions and no one will read them because it's too long. I clearly need to stop blogging right now and go back to work.

Anyway, there are my (many) confessions for this week. Don't forget to head over to the link-up to check out some other bloggers' confessions or to link up your own! Happy Wednesday, all!

- A


  1. THAT is only a week's worth of material. Crazy! Good luck!!!

    1. Yeah... I am not okay with all of that paper. Some of the bulk is from professors saving their Powerpoint presentations as 1 slide per page, so I can fix that and minimize a bit... but the volume of information is nuts!

  2. Oh goodness, I completely understand what you mean about worrying you're better friends with someone than they are with you. Or that you like someone more than they like you? I don't know. But I know you know what I mean. I think I've actually let a few solid friendships go simply because I was being weird/paranoid about that, and I regret it. I decided to not "sabotage" (my husband's word) newer friendships that way, but . . . unfortunately, I am who I am. The mess that I am, indeed. :)

    I can just avoid eating entirely when I don't know what I want, too, which doesn't seem like it would make sense -- but sometimes the indecision gets to me! You're not alone!

    1. Haha, I'm glad I'm not alone in my semi-neurotic friendship thoughts, or my not-eating-when-indecisive-ways! :)

  3. I completely understand your Scandal problem, I got hooked on it a few months ago and I was sleeping like 3 hours a night just so I could watch more of it and believe me, it gets better :)

    1. Fortunately, my husband makes me go to bed or else I might just marathon all of the episodes that are left and pass out from exhaustion when I was finished!


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